So wen I get home on Friday, the word "Forgive" keeps popping in my mind. So I'm like "What?" "Forgive."
So, those of you who know me know that now that I'd been discharged, I think I'm fine and can go right back to my normal routine. Forget that the discharge papers said that I shouldn't drive, would feel dizzy and was in danger of falling. I got up Saturday and went to the bank, picked up meds, went to supermarket etc. By noontime I was totally exhausted and dizzy, so I went home and laid down.
"Forgive".
"Forgive Who?"
"EVERYBODY"
So I had to think about that. I was holding alot of resentment inside and it was beginning to take its toll on my body. Not only that, but it was stunting my spiritual growth. I needed to let it all go.... And I did.
All is forgiven. Boy do I feel a WHOLE LOT BETTER!!!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
PRAYER WORKS
Last Monday morning I was rushed to the hospital with a blood pressure
of 220 over 168. God is Great. I was a walking dead lady with no idea
that my pressure was that high. Fortunately, I work at a school where
there is an EMT Training Academy. So I "just happened" to be talking with one
of the instructors telling her that I was having some mild chest pain
and she took my pressure and called 911.
After being in the hospital (where they found no blockage or clotting
of my heart) They couldn't get the pressure below 180/110. I had been
talking to many friends during this time, but non offered prayer and I
didn't ask - I was praying for myself. By the time Thursday came
around and my pressure was still high, I decided that I needed
corporate prayer. I didn't know my deacon's number and being a
relatively new membber of Enon, my only real connection is with the
Dawning of a New Day Ministry. So I called Helena and she prayed for
me and also called me the next day with my deacon's phone number.
So when they took my pressure Thursday night at around 10pm - it was
160/100 - not good, but down. By Friday afternoon, my pressure had
stabilized at 130/85!!!! And I was discharged Friday night.
I just want to take this opportunity to thank Helena for her
encouragement, inspiration and most of all her powerful prayer.
Also, thanks for reminding me of the awesome power of
prayer and for letting me know that asking for prayer is not a sign of
weakness, but a sign of strentgh!!!
of 220 over 168. God is Great. I was a walking dead lady with no idea
that my pressure was that high. Fortunately, I work at a school where
there is an EMT Training Academy. So I "just happened" to be talking with one
of the instructors telling her that I was having some mild chest pain
and she took my pressure and called 911.
After being in the hospital (where they found no blockage or clotting
of my heart) They couldn't get the pressure below 180/110. I had been
talking to many friends during this time, but non offered prayer and I
didn't ask - I was praying for myself. By the time Thursday came
around and my pressure was still high, I decided that I needed
corporate prayer. I didn't know my deacon's number and being a
relatively new membber of Enon, my only real connection is with the
Dawning of a New Day Ministry. So I called Helena and she prayed for
me and also called me the next day with my deacon's phone number.
So when they took my pressure Thursday night at around 10pm - it was
160/100 - not good, but down. By Friday afternoon, my pressure had
stabilized at 130/85!!!! And I was discharged Friday night.
I just want to take this opportunity to thank Helena for her
encouragement, inspiration and most of all her powerful prayer.
Also, thanks for reminding me of the awesome power of
prayer and for letting me know that asking for prayer is not a sign of
weakness, but a sign of strentgh!!!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Back to Basics
Sometimes (more often than not) I wake up in the middle of the night - somewhere between 1:00am and 3:00am. During those times I often find myself humming a tune - usually a gospel tune or some song of praise or something.
This morning when I woke, I found myself humming an old favorite of my oldest daughter. It was a song she learned in kindergarten at a christian centered school. (Let me add that although I often felt that academically the school was not up to par, it helped all my children form a solid foundation that was reinforced at home and that they still have embedded in them today.)
Anyway, the song begins like this:
In the beginning was the word, In the beginning was the word.
And the word was with God. And the word was God.
He was with God in the beginning, he was with God in the beginning
Nothing that was made was made without him.
I just start laughing and shouting. The wonders of God never cease to amaze me.
This is straight from John 1:1. Jesus is the Word of God. God speaks and Jesus manifests what God says. God said "Let there be light" and Jesus, the Word, brought light into existence. This is just so amazing to me. What's more amazing is how I've sang and heard that song a million times, but upon humming it last night or this morning, it brought new joy to my heart!!!
But then the song continues on to say how Jesus left his Heavenly Throne and dwelt among us. I can't remember the exact words, but the message is that his own didn't accept him, crucified him. But he rose and conquered death hell and the grave and is coming back in the clouds of glory. Like I said, not those exact words, but that is the message of the song. If you read this daughter, know that I'm gonna be asking you and that particular crew of yours to sing that song for me the next time I see you all together. ( I always give them a test of remembrance from christian education when they are together.)
Just felt like sharing that.
Peace and Love.
This morning when I woke, I found myself humming an old favorite of my oldest daughter. It was a song she learned in kindergarten at a christian centered school. (Let me add that although I often felt that academically the school was not up to par, it helped all my children form a solid foundation that was reinforced at home and that they still have embedded in them today.)
Anyway, the song begins like this:
In the beginning was the word, In the beginning was the word.
And the word was with God. And the word was God.
He was with God in the beginning, he was with God in the beginning
Nothing that was made was made without him.
I just start laughing and shouting. The wonders of God never cease to amaze me.
This is straight from John 1:1. Jesus is the Word of God. God speaks and Jesus manifests what God says. God said "Let there be light" and Jesus, the Word, brought light into existence. This is just so amazing to me. What's more amazing is how I've sang and heard that song a million times, but upon humming it last night or this morning, it brought new joy to my heart!!!
But then the song continues on to say how Jesus left his Heavenly Throne and dwelt among us. I can't remember the exact words, but the message is that his own didn't accept him, crucified him. But he rose and conquered death hell and the grave and is coming back in the clouds of glory. Like I said, not those exact words, but that is the message of the song. If you read this daughter, know that I'm gonna be asking you and that particular crew of yours to sing that song for me the next time I see you all together. ( I always give them a test of remembrance from christian education when they are together.)
Just felt like sharing that.
Peace and Love.
Friday, April 17, 2009
YAHWEH SABAOTH..GOD OF Gods
God of gods!
"Who among the gods is like you, O LORD ? Who is like you— majestic in holiness, awesome in glory, working wonders? Exodus 15:11
This has been a trying week. But as I look back on the events that were designed to harm me, I realize how petty and weak those attempts were. What was meant for bad made me all the more aware of how incredibly AWESOME MAGNIFICENT and WONDERFUL My GOD is!!!
I learned a valuable lesson this week, as I do everyday that I grow in the knowledge of the Lord. I have to learn to keep my eyes on the bigger picture and not be distracted or sidetracked by petty attempts to discourage me.
Peace and Love!
"Who among the gods is like you, O LORD ? Who is like you— majestic in holiness, awesome in glory, working wonders? Exodus 15:11
This has been a trying week. But as I look back on the events that were designed to harm me, I realize how petty and weak those attempts were. What was meant for bad made me all the more aware of how incredibly AWESOME MAGNIFICENT and WONDERFUL My GOD is!!!
I learned a valuable lesson this week, as I do everyday that I grow in the knowledge of the Lord. I have to learn to keep my eyes on the bigger picture and not be distracted or sidetracked by petty attempts to discourage me.
Peace and Love!
Friday, March 13, 2009
Deliverance
I started writing my personal handwritten journal in 2006. It is entitled Death, Divorce, Deliverance. I like to call that period of my life the dark ages. I was going through the barrage of emotional stages that death and divorce can bring, but I knew that deliverance was soon to come...it had to. When I go back and read some of my entries, I realize that it really and truly was a a dark and lonely time for me.
As I started to think about deliverance, I thought "What exactly does it mean?" The only think that came to my mind at the time was Moses. He was called the Deliverer. And that song from "The Prince of Egypt" (Deliver Us) just kept going through my mind. I am not ashamed to say that I had to look up the word deliverance! I found the following adjectives: Release, Liberation, Freedom, Rescue, Relief.
Well, today I can truly say that I have been released, liberated, freed, rescued and relieved.
During my dark ages , I felt SO ALL ALONE. But as I look back, I see that I wasn't alone at all. God was there the whole time, even though I felt like he had forsaken me, he hadn't.
My mother had this picture hanging in her dining room for years. It is a picture of Jesus Silhouette carrying a lady on the beach. This had always been one of my favorite pictures, but it lost it's meaning to me during my dark ages. I have had the picture hanging in my bedroom but hadn't really given it much thought until around November of last year.
It embodies the poem "Footprints".
As I started to think about deliverance, I thought "What exactly does it mean?" The only think that came to my mind at the time was Moses. He was called the Deliverer. And that song from "The Prince of Egypt" (Deliver Us) just kept going through my mind. I am not ashamed to say that I had to look up the word deliverance! I found the following adjectives: Release, Liberation, Freedom, Rescue, Relief.
Well, today I can truly say that I have been released, liberated, freed, rescued and relieved.
During my dark ages , I felt SO ALL ALONE. But as I look back, I see that I wasn't alone at all. God was there the whole time, even though I felt like he had forsaken me, he hadn't.
My mother had this picture hanging in her dining room for years. It is a picture of Jesus Silhouette carrying a lady on the beach. This had always been one of my favorite pictures, but it lost it's meaning to me during my dark ages. I have had the picture hanging in my bedroom but hadn't really given it much thought until around November of last year.
It embodies the poem "Footprints".
| Footprints in the Sand |
| One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. |
| Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. |
| In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. |
| Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, |
| other times there were one set of footprints. |
| This bothered me because I noticed |
| that during the low periods of my life, |
| when I was suffering from |
| anguish, sorrow or defeat, |
| I could see only one set of footprints. |
| So I said to the Lord, |
| "You promised me Lord, |
| that if I followed you, |
| you would walk with me always. |
| But I have noticed that during |
| the most trying periods of my life |
| there have only been one |
| set of footprints in the sand. |
| Why, when I needed you most, |
| you have not been there for me?" |
| The Lord replied, |
| "The times when you have |
| seen only one set of footprints in the sand, |
| is when I carried you." |
| Mary Stevenson |
| Copyright © 1984 Mary Stevenson, from original 1936 text, All rights reserved |
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