That's how I feel right now...a little frazzled.
But I'll be alright in a few ticks.
Just taking it all in and digesting...
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Still on my journey
"Come on now. Pull yourself together. People die every day. Everybody's gonna die one day...even me. Now, pull it together. You wasn't that close to her anyhow. Life goes on. Now. Get it together and go in there and take that test and do your best."
That was my very first lesson about death. Those were the words my mother said to me the day my dad's mom died from breast cancer. I was in the 8th grade and was going to take an entrance exam to get into Cecilian Academy that morning when my mother got the call that "Nanny" had died. I just took it as she said because she was my mom and at that point whatever she said was it. So I went on and took the test and failed - (I didn't want to go to that school anyway), And just like my mom said, life continued to go on.
As we prepare to bury my father this Friday, these words come to mind again...some 30 years later.
And the journey continues......
That was my very first lesson about death. Those were the words my mother said to me the day my dad's mom died from breast cancer. I was in the 8th grade and was going to take an entrance exam to get into Cecilian Academy that morning when my mother got the call that "Nanny" had died. I just took it as she said because she was my mom and at that point whatever she said was it. So I went on and took the test and failed - (I didn't want to go to that school anyway), And just like my mom said, life continued to go on.
As we prepare to bury my father this Friday, these words come to mind again...some 30 years later.
And the journey continues......
Thursday, June 3, 2010
The Journey Continues...
And the mission continually unfolds before my very eyes. Sometimes I wonder what I am doing; why I am doing it and what difference does it make anyway? One thing that I know is true...I am at the very place I am supposed to be at this particular moment in time.
Wow! It's been a while since I've written anything here.
We definitely have to catch up.
Wow! It's been a while since I've written anything here.
We definitely have to catch up.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
LETTING IT GO....
So wen I get home on Friday, the word "Forgive" keeps popping in my mind. So I'm like "What?" "Forgive."
So, those of you who know me know that now that I'd been discharged, I think I'm fine and can go right back to my normal routine. Forget that the discharge papers said that I shouldn't drive, would feel dizzy and was in danger of falling. I got up Saturday and went to the bank, picked up meds, went to supermarket etc. By noontime I was totally exhausted and dizzy, so I went home and laid down.
"Forgive".
"Forgive Who?"
"EVERYBODY"
So I had to think about that. I was holding alot of resentment inside and it was beginning to take its toll on my body. Not only that, but it was stunting my spiritual growth. I needed to let it all go.... And I did.
All is forgiven. Boy do I feel a WHOLE LOT BETTER!!!
So, those of you who know me know that now that I'd been discharged, I think I'm fine and can go right back to my normal routine. Forget that the discharge papers said that I shouldn't drive, would feel dizzy and was in danger of falling. I got up Saturday and went to the bank, picked up meds, went to supermarket etc. By noontime I was totally exhausted and dizzy, so I went home and laid down.
"Forgive".
"Forgive Who?"
"EVERYBODY"
So I had to think about that. I was holding alot of resentment inside and it was beginning to take its toll on my body. Not only that, but it was stunting my spiritual growth. I needed to let it all go.... And I did.
All is forgiven. Boy do I feel a WHOLE LOT BETTER!!!
PRAYER WORKS
Last Monday morning I was rushed to the hospital with a blood pressure
of 220 over 168. God is Great. I was a walking dead lady with no idea
that my pressure was that high. Fortunately, I work at a school where
there is an EMT Training Academy. So I "just happened" to be talking with one
of the instructors telling her that I was having some mild chest pain
and she took my pressure and called 911.
After being in the hospital (where they found no blockage or clotting
of my heart) They couldn't get the pressure below 180/110. I had been
talking to many friends during this time, but non offered prayer and I
didn't ask - I was praying for myself. By the time Thursday came
around and my pressure was still high, I decided that I needed
corporate prayer. I didn't know my deacon's number and being a
relatively new membber of Enon, my only real connection is with the
Dawning of a New Day Ministry. So I called Helena and she prayed for
me and also called me the next day with my deacon's phone number.
So when they took my pressure Thursday night at around 10pm - it was
160/100 - not good, but down. By Friday afternoon, my pressure had
stabilized at 130/85!!!! And I was discharged Friday night.
I just want to take this opportunity to thank Helena for her
encouragement, inspiration and most of all her powerful prayer.
Also, thanks for reminding me of the awesome power of
prayer and for letting me know that asking for prayer is not a sign of
weakness, but a sign of strentgh!!!
of 220 over 168. God is Great. I was a walking dead lady with no idea
that my pressure was that high. Fortunately, I work at a school where
there is an EMT Training Academy. So I "just happened" to be talking with one
of the instructors telling her that I was having some mild chest pain
and she took my pressure and called 911.
After being in the hospital (where they found no blockage or clotting
of my heart) They couldn't get the pressure below 180/110. I had been
talking to many friends during this time, but non offered prayer and I
didn't ask - I was praying for myself. By the time Thursday came
around and my pressure was still high, I decided that I needed
corporate prayer. I didn't know my deacon's number and being a
relatively new membber of Enon, my only real connection is with the
Dawning of a New Day Ministry. So I called Helena and she prayed for
me and also called me the next day with my deacon's phone number.
So when they took my pressure Thursday night at around 10pm - it was
160/100 - not good, but down. By Friday afternoon, my pressure had
stabilized at 130/85!!!! And I was discharged Friday night.
I just want to take this opportunity to thank Helena for her
encouragement, inspiration and most of all her powerful prayer.
Also, thanks for reminding me of the awesome power of
prayer and for letting me know that asking for prayer is not a sign of
weakness, but a sign of strentgh!!!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Back to Basics
Sometimes (more often than not) I wake up in the middle of the night - somewhere between 1:00am and 3:00am. During those times I often find myself humming a tune - usually a gospel tune or some song of praise or something.
This morning when I woke, I found myself humming an old favorite of my oldest daughter. It was a song she learned in kindergarten at a christian centered school. (Let me add that although I often felt that academically the school was not up to par, it helped all my children form a solid foundation that was reinforced at home and that they still have embedded in them today.)
Anyway, the song begins like this:
In the beginning was the word, In the beginning was the word.
And the word was with God. And the word was God.
He was with God in the beginning, he was with God in the beginning
Nothing that was made was made without him.
I just start laughing and shouting. The wonders of God never cease to amaze me.
This is straight from John 1:1. Jesus is the Word of God. God speaks and Jesus manifests what God says. God said "Let there be light" and Jesus, the Word, brought light into existence. This is just so amazing to me. What's more amazing is how I've sang and heard that song a million times, but upon humming it last night or this morning, it brought new joy to my heart!!!
But then the song continues on to say how Jesus left his Heavenly Throne and dwelt among us. I can't remember the exact words, but the message is that his own didn't accept him, crucified him. But he rose and conquered death hell and the grave and is coming back in the clouds of glory. Like I said, not those exact words, but that is the message of the song. If you read this daughter, know that I'm gonna be asking you and that particular crew of yours to sing that song for me the next time I see you all together. ( I always give them a test of remembrance from christian education when they are together.)
Just felt like sharing that.
Peace and Love.
This morning when I woke, I found myself humming an old favorite of my oldest daughter. It was a song she learned in kindergarten at a christian centered school. (Let me add that although I often felt that academically the school was not up to par, it helped all my children form a solid foundation that was reinforced at home and that they still have embedded in them today.)
Anyway, the song begins like this:
In the beginning was the word, In the beginning was the word.
And the word was with God. And the word was God.
He was with God in the beginning, he was with God in the beginning
Nothing that was made was made without him.
I just start laughing and shouting. The wonders of God never cease to amaze me.
This is straight from John 1:1. Jesus is the Word of God. God speaks and Jesus manifests what God says. God said "Let there be light" and Jesus, the Word, brought light into existence. This is just so amazing to me. What's more amazing is how I've sang and heard that song a million times, but upon humming it last night or this morning, it brought new joy to my heart!!!
But then the song continues on to say how Jesus left his Heavenly Throne and dwelt among us. I can't remember the exact words, but the message is that his own didn't accept him, crucified him. But he rose and conquered death hell and the grave and is coming back in the clouds of glory. Like I said, not those exact words, but that is the message of the song. If you read this daughter, know that I'm gonna be asking you and that particular crew of yours to sing that song for me the next time I see you all together. ( I always give them a test of remembrance from christian education when they are together.)
Just felt like sharing that.
Peace and Love.
Friday, April 17, 2009
YAHWEH SABAOTH..GOD OF Gods
God of gods!
"Who among the gods is like you, O LORD ? Who is like you— majestic in holiness, awesome in glory, working wonders? Exodus 15:11
This has been a trying week. But as I look back on the events that were designed to harm me, I realize how petty and weak those attempts were. What was meant for bad made me all the more aware of how incredibly AWESOME MAGNIFICENT and WONDERFUL My GOD is!!!
I learned a valuable lesson this week, as I do everyday that I grow in the knowledge of the Lord. I have to learn to keep my eyes on the bigger picture and not be distracted or sidetracked by petty attempts to discourage me.
Peace and Love!
"Who among the gods is like you, O LORD ? Who is like you— majestic in holiness, awesome in glory, working wonders? Exodus 15:11
This has been a trying week. But as I look back on the events that were designed to harm me, I realize how petty and weak those attempts were. What was meant for bad made me all the more aware of how incredibly AWESOME MAGNIFICENT and WONDERFUL My GOD is!!!
I learned a valuable lesson this week, as I do everyday that I grow in the knowledge of the Lord. I have to learn to keep my eyes on the bigger picture and not be distracted or sidetracked by petty attempts to discourage me.
Peace and Love!
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